My New Book

My good intentions of starting a blog right after I got back obviously did not happen. Way too many new things that I needed to learn and go through before I had time or the energy to document. I'm coming up on my year mark of when I had my shut down. This is caused me to ponder greatly. Who would have thought a year ago I would be where I am now. People ask me if I'm ready to start my new chapter in life. I tell them that it is not a new chapter but a completely new book. I am a completely different person than I was a year ago. Each new day I learn something new about myself. I learned that I am weaker than I thought, stronger than I thought, and have much more to learn.

I have decided that I really need to start documenting regularly like I did at the Bridge so I help myself recognise each day's blessings and miracles or the theme and lesson I need to be learning for the day. I have days that are super hard and when they come I forget about the many miracles and blessings that I have had in the recent past. Since I have been home I have completed a divorce, moved into a new apartment, turned the big 40, started a new career (nothing like I have ever done before), worked hard and got accepted into school to become an occupational therapy assistant, sent off my missionary son, spent a few days in the hospital getting surgery on a severed tendon on my finger and I have dealt with the many lonely days and nights. I have more happy days than sad days but it seems the sad days are unbearable at times. I go and do the things that I have done in the direction in which He has led me but some days I just think it's too hard. Other days I can't remember being as happy as I am at that moment. I become so proud of myself and the things that I've accomplished with the help of my Lord. I do things that I never thought were possible. I get knocked down, sometimes really hard, but I always get back up. I hope and pray that those days will become far and few between. I've been offered to write a book about my experience. If I had not lived it I would not have believed it myself. I am not sure how to do this or even if I will but I'm glad that someone else might benefit from my pain and from my learning experiences.

So my new book begins. Stay tuned.